March 22, 2011 – Day 47
Today in therapy we worked on more eye movement and strengthening Garren’s eye muscles. More yes/no question time. We asked different questions:
"Do you like to watch Dora the Explorer?" NO.
"Do you like to play Black Ops?" YES.
Then I asked him "Are you at school?" No answer. "Are you at the hospital?" No answer.
We could tell he was thinking hard and getting tired so we let him rest for a few minutes. It’s amazing how much energy it takes to think, process and respond. We take so much for granted.
As we’ve shared with you, we remind Garren each day where he is and why. We always start out by saying “You had a headache at school”. So after a short rest I decided to ask him about this. My question was “Did you have a headache at school?” The response was more that I was ready for. He looked up at the YES card, then his whole face filled with emotion. His eyes got big and his mouth opened. He became visibly upset. This is the first time I have really seen him show any emotion since we’ve been in the hospital. I talked him through the whole scenario again, explaining where we were and why, and he calmed back down.
Later, back in his room, he showed the same upset response again. We talked about his journey again and then prayed together. He calmed down.
We've all been dealing with this for the last 47 days. We've had a lot of time to process, feel, and show our emotions. Garren is just now coming around to understanding where he is, why he’s here, and what this has done to his body. His last memories are probably of playing in the gym at school as a healthy, athletic boy; and now he lays in a hospital bed and can’t move on his own. Big change and lots to deal with!
While it's sad that Garren has to deal with the realization of what he is going through, it's also good news. Garren is becoming aware of his surroundings and coming a little more out of ‘the fog’. But for a mom’s heart it’s hard to see him deal with this. I just want to take all the pain away and make him better. I can’t do that but I can love him, be here for him, and pray for him.
Please continue to pray for Garren; especially for a peace and comfort that only God can give as he heals and deals with his reality.