March 14, 2011

Dark

It's dark.

I feel confused.

What happened?

I'm trying so hard to open my eyes. Nothing happens. Let me try again. I am doing everything I can. I hear something.

"Garren, open your eyes."

What's going on? I am opening my eyes.

"Good Garren! We see you trying! Open you eyes all the way!"

It's so hard. It's so bright! Why are they yelling at me to open my eyes? What's going on?

My nose itches. I can't move anything. Where am I? Everything's blurry. What's going on?

"Garren! It's Mom!"

Mom? Mom I'm here! I can't see you! I can hear you...I can't move! I'm trying to talk...but nothing happens. What's going on? Mom?

"Garren...It's Mom. You're in the hospital."

What? The hospital? Why?

"Garren...It's going to be ok. You had a headache at school. We brought you to the hospital. The doctors did surgery on your brain. And now you look great! You're going to be fine."

Fine? Headache? Surgery? I must be dreaming. This can't be real. I've had these dreams before. Where everything is moving in slow motion. You try to run and you can't get away. Yes, this must be a dream. I just need to wake up.

"Garren...It's Dad."

Dad - what's going on? I can't move. I think I must be dreaming.

"Garren...you're in the hospital. Garren. Open your eyes, Buddy. Let me see your eyes so I can talk to you."

Dad...I'm so tired. I can't keep my eyes open. It's so hard.

"Garren, I know it's hard. I know you're trying. We're in the hospital. We're going to help you get better. We have a lot of work to do. It's going to be hard work. But I've seen you work hard before, and we're going to do this together."

Do what? What work? I'm just dreaming...I just need to wake up...

Everything is so blurry.

I can't move.

I'm so tired.

Why is it so dark?

12 comments:

Anonymous said...

He can see you, he can feel you right there beside him. It may be dark but he knows you 2 are there. We know God is there too. He's watching and guiding him at every twist and turn! The Sun will shine again,....we continue to pray and he continues to listen.

Lori Radford
Ben's Mom :)

Anonymous said...

weeping as I pray for Garen but believing in faith that Jesus is taking him from the hand and bringing him out of darkness into His light and love and full life

Anonymous said...

It is always the darkest before the dawn...take care, dear family, be strong in the Lord, and in His might...praying for dawn to come for Garren and for you...praying that God will let Garren speak, let him know that you are there...no fear for him, or for you and Nancy...don't give up now...trust in God's timing and His plan for all of you through all of this...it is harder than I can begin to imagine, but want you to know that we are praying for you ever so much. love, Sandy & Russ

tammywingate said...

sad tears....but through the sad tears as well as the happy ones...I pray! I pray for you and Nancy that the Holy Spirit wraps you in His comfort. For the girls that they are encouraged daily, and for sweet Garren!! I pray tht he understands, that he is not afraid, that hs is just resting and healing!
Bob's surgery went well and he is home recovering...but while waiting to be released...out of the blue he asked when Garren was going to get to come home. He is always in our thought and prayers. We were only there two days and can't imagine how ready you all are!!!
Praying for Sunshine!!
<>< t

Jim said...

God bless you guys!! the Skellys are praying for God to work in your life in ways that we cannot fathom.

Anonymous said...

It's only dark when there's no light and I believe with all of my heart that Garren has that light. He knows you're there and he hears every word! During these darker moments, cling to the hope God has given you...Continuing to pray for all of you and for the neurostorms to ease up. In for the long haul, The Sisk Family

Kitty @ Four Little Toms and a Mom said...

This post broke my heart.

We all have our tunnels. Garren's is so real because it's more physical. I love what the Sisk family had to say. Any tunnels and caves aren't completely dark when you're filled with Light. Always praying

Anonymous said...

out of darkness WILL come light. In continuous prayer for all of you. Stay strong, focused and positive. We love you!

Kim said...

I read this a few times and each time through tears. Wishing that I had words to give. John 1:4-5 "What came into existece was Life, and the Life was Light to live by. The Life-Light blazed out of the darkness, the darkness couldn't put it out." The Light is all over Garren. I am praying and will keep praying.

Anonymous said...

I can hardly read thru the tears! Your family amazes me as I watch you go through what has to be the toughest challenge you all will ever face. Prayers and love. Layne Madaris

Kristi said...

I am praying for you all. I don't have any special words for you except that I keep you in my thoughts and prayers as often as possible.

Love,

KLP

Anonymous said...

Good morning Garren (and family)...today looks like we might have some rain...an old camp song reads, "I saw raindrops, on my window, joy is like the rain.laugher drips across my pane, slips away and comes again, joy is like the rain." I hope that today, joy, like rain, will overflow in your heart(s) as you begin your therapy time with Jesus....He has already planned the day for you...lean on Him...Garren, lean on Him...we are praying for all of you...love, Sandy & Russ